I'm relying on a lot of things to go right. I'm too scared to take action because I don't want to see over confident. Part of me also believes that I'm really not adequate.
I need to learn to take better care of myself. I need to learn to love myself. I've heard about the whole mantras..."I am enough" "I am beautiful" blah blah blah...But you can't just say that to yourself if you don't believe it. I could say that to myself hundreds of times, but in the end I wouldn't believe myself.
How do I go about fixing this? I want to be able to see myself the way my boyfriend sees me. I want to be able to believe I'm as amazing and incredible as he says that I am.
I'm not pitiful and I don't need sympathy.
I just want to know what to do.
But, why can't I figure that out for myself? Why do I feel like I need someone to tell me?
I'm afraid of failure...I am afraid to fail.
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